pretty-awkward

Holy moly, it has been almost a year since I wrote something in here. How is everyone doing (in case there is still anyone reading this)?

My life has been kind of boring and uneventful lately. I'm waiting to enroll in a university in France where I will normally start communication studies in September. Other than that, I write video game reviews for a journal here in the country from time to time. Love doing that and it's also what I want to continue doing in the future.

Well, the reason why I'm posting this: I decided to clean my gallery and profile page a little. I know I haven't submitted anything in ages but I wanted my gallery to be easier to browse so I created some icons for the gallery folders and deleted a lot of old crap. There is not much in the folders but thought it would look nicer anyway. I think I also want to go through my favorites very soon, way too much stuff in there as well.

I'm spending most of my time online on twitter, tumblr, youtube and sometimes on livejournal. But I don't want to get rid of my deviantart account since I still love searching for things here from time to time. I have also been working on my blog lately, still trying to figure out how I want my layout to look like and what exactly I should post.

The title might be misleading, since I really don't know if I will ever publish anything here again or not. But no matter what, I will try to stay around!

Where you can find me:
Twitter
Tumblr
Instagram
Weheartit
Backloggery
Blog

First of all, thanks for the birthday wishes!! I know I'm a bit late and was only around one or two times last week so I didn't immediately see everything.

Let's make some things clear: I'm still around from time to time, I do favorite things (tons of Avengers related stuff lately) but I won't post drawings anymore. I'm pretty much done with it. I used to love drawing and if I would have practiced more, maybe I would have become better and would have drawn things on PC and stuff. But it's just not for me anymore. I don't have the time and patience for it anymore. I need to make a few choices in life now. Things have been crazy here lately but my storeroom of fucks is growing low (and winter is coming). So one of the things I used to love doing has to suffer from it. Maybe one day, who knows, but not right now. The other problem I have with devART is: what to upload on here now?

For most of my daily updates I use twitter, for photos I use instagram (I'm such a hipster, I know), for my daily fandom needs I use tumblr/livejournal. I already am on so many places on the interwebz and it takes me forever to go through things each and every day. I could put collages I sometimes make on here, I'll see. I don't want this account to be totally dead. I did also delete a bunch of old crap out of my gallery. And I'm also following way too many artists here but I don't want to get rid of any of these talented people. So this makes my message box explode every time.

My fandoms do change quite often even if this year is more a movie year for me. All the good games have been released already (the others will follow at the end of the year: Ass Creed 3 and Resident Evil 6 UGHASDFGHJKL; ALL THE FEELS). As for anime, I watched Mirai Nikki and Persona 4 but since these are already over… I'm only watching Korra and Ultimate Spider-Man now (which technically are cartoons but whatever). I might need a new show to watch during the holidays because Once Upon a Time ended (and I'm still crying but thank God it's coming back).
As pretty much everyone on the internet, I am totally in The Avengers fandom at the moment and it's awesome (you haven't seen this yet? WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?). No seriously, this movie is great. Everyone is flawless, even if my two favorite characters are definitely Hawkeye and Loki. I loved Renner since Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol (another of my big fucking fandoms this year; Brandt/Benji shipper represent) and seen most of his other movies. As for Tom, well everyone loves him so I guess I don't even need to explain more. So yeah, these two guys ruin my life at the moment and I hate them for doing so.

On another note, I was extremely surprised to see that my (shitty) Heavy Rain graphics are still doing so well!! Some of them have reached over 10.000 views.
JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL.
So thank you all for that!!
Thank you also for your watches and everything!! I know I'm not the best artist but it's always nice to see that some people appreciate your work!!

So in case some of you want to add me on other places:

Twitter: sky_pirate
Tumblr: zombrex
Instagram: velvet_room

I would love to see some of you there.
This isn't a goodbye since I might still post here again and I'm still around somehow but I just thought it would be good to explain a few things.

no evil shall escape my sight. If you guess where this is from, you'll get... a hug.



So my deviantart premium membership is over now. I haven't renewed it yet and I'm not sure if I will. I'm not very often on deviantart and if I am, I am too busy watching all of the latest deviations and stuff like that. And since I don't post that much anymore and I am more active on other pages, I think I will keep my money for something else. And paying for a paid livejournal account every year, that doesn't work half of the time btw, is already enough.

I'm still working until Friday and then I'll be done with this. Finally. It was fun at the beginning but got kind of annoying now.

Fandoms... well I beat L.A. Noire a few days ago. Good game even if it was quite repetitive and the story got boring at some point but picked up again towards the end. Then, Catherine, this game, seriously. The puzzles, especially the boss fights are going to be the end of me. So annoying sometimes, but still fun. I've been reading and buying lots of new comic books lately too. I'm reading Final Crisis right now, some heavy reading right there but I'm still enjoying it. Not sure what I should read next. Maybe more Green Lantern. Still trying to catch up with One Piece and some other manga. As for anime, I've been watching lots of Card Captor Sakura episodes lately. It's so cute and fun to watch, I still love them. My beautiful childhood.
But to my biggest obsession... PRISON BREAK.
Everything is beautiful, and nothing hurts. I love everything about this show. Especially the characters. I haven't been in a fandom like this for a while and it feels good to read fic and search for stuff about the show. I'm watching season 2 right now and despite what people say, I really love it. It's not the same as season 1, of course but I think it's not that bad. As for my favorite character... well that would be T-Bag. Of course it is. It's nearly creepy how they make you like a character like this. But I just love the way he acts and talks and looks and everything. He also reminds me a lot of a mixture between Ben and Sawyer from Lost. Then, there is Michael of course but I don't like him as much as many other people. Surprisingly enough, I also like Haywire a lot too. He is just crazy and again, he reminds me of Faraday which is always a good thing. Abruzzi of course too. Dude, why isn't this Lost and we could just bring him back somehow? I already miss him. Mahone is just awesome and Kellerman... well I love him so much now. I also have a new ship... Sara/Paul, yeah don't ask. It's weird and I'm probably the only one who likes it. But my biggest OTP is T-Bag/Abruzzi. HNNNNNGGG. The eye-fucking, always and forever. I seriously couldn't handle it.
LMAO I'm pretty sure this didn't make sense to most of you but I just had to get this out of my chest. All in all, new third favorite show, will watch until I'm done whatever the haters say.

There is something I actually wanted to talk about... It might get long, boring and ranty so feel free to skip. Sometimes there are moments when you think that you are surrounded by so many people you can trust but other times... it's just the opposite. This year again, I wanted to go to gamescom since I really enjoyed it last year. It was such a wonderful experience and it's something I was looking forward to during most of the year. My ex-boyfriend during that time promised that we would go there again together but since then, he got a new girlfriend and that was already one thing that got dangerous to the plan. I'm ok with the fact that she wants to come with him even if SHE HAS NOT THE SLIGHTEST IDEA ABOUT GAMES, but let's say it that way, I'm not her best friend and it would still have been awkward to see both of them together. So I asked a few people if they would feel like going with me. Some of them work during that period of time, which sucks balls but I do understand that it doesn't work. While others, well idk. You know when you ask someone and they are like 'yeah why not' but you can immediately feel that they don't feel like going. And seriously, that hurts. Some of them still said 'maybe' which turned into a 'no' after all. And now when I finally found someone who would be interested, my stupid ex isn't answering his phone or replying to my messages!!! SERIOUSLY, WHAT? I actually need him to go there since he said he would rent a car and take my friend and I with him. And that is exactly what I mean by feeling betrayed and not being able to trust anyone!! I am not asking for much, just for this. Just to get an honest answer or idk.
I already have enough on my mind because of that stupid ass Erasmus thing in a few weeks and if I should continue my studies there or not. I don't want to be bothered with stuff like that too...
To come back to the gamescom thing, I think I will go and beg my parents if they just want to go there with , and me on Saturday. There will be lots of people which sucks but I would be thankful for every minute I could spend there. What do you learn from this story? Well, again, don't trust anyone. Sad but true.

I am done ranting now. I could go on forever but that wouldn't change a thing.

Hope that all of you are enjoying their holidays. See ya around o/

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